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slightly after 3:29 PM

I know this ain't tumblr but I'd like to blog this:

Taken from Babystar's blog.

I know it's not a good sign when I'm tired from basically doing nothing productive. I hate this feeling. I might make myself sick soon. Don't wish to be sick please. On a lighter note, tomorrow's going to be slightly fruitful as there will be SEA meeting cum post-mortem and I have plans for later in the day. Whoopee. I hope plans for Wednesday will not be further postponed or else I might go nuts.

How I wish I have interesting stories to share but I just don't. So...

you'll be my only,
no need to worry ♥

slightly after 12:48 AM

Technically today's already Monday, but since I've not slept yet, it's still considered as Sunday. I was about to head home when I saw a cat at the void deck. These stray cats.. very smart, really. It's like they know how to break my heart with their constant meows. Even more so when I meow back, and they'd answer with another meow. OMG CAN?

So the convo between the cat and I went like this:

Cat: *catwalks towards me*
Me: *human-walk towards cat*
Cat: Meow...
Me: Meow meow.
Cat: Meow...
Me: Lapar eh?
Cat: Meow...
Me: Nak makan?
Cat: Meow...
Me: Kejap eh.
Cat: *follows me towards the mamak shop*

I entered the shop and obviously the cat did not enter as well lah. Looked for the best flavour I could find. Salmon sounded awesome! Paid for a tin worth $1.30 with $50.30. Seriously... -_-" I had no small change with me. I was pretty worried the cat might've been bored by then and left me with the food meant for itself. But haha! No!! It waited right outside the shop! Omg super bloody cute I must say. I stepped out from the shop and saw the cat sitting by the bin, staring at me. The moment it sensed that I was about to feed it, it went excited and unable to control its enthusiasm.

I stupidly told it to sit, tapi peduli apa si betina ni, instead of sitting it attempted to jump OH NO me don't likey at all. The cat was so excited its little paws actually stepped all over my foot and it rubbed its body against my leg. Wth, tkya step cute k? Haha! Had a wee bit of a hard time removing the lid. The whole time I kept worrying it might scratch me. Thankfully it didn't.

Watched the sweetie eat her heart out. After it was done and contented, we said "Bye-bye!"

you'll be my only,
no need to worry ♥

slightly after 10:22 AM

While some people have them now, I, on the other hand, never had the chance to feel their presence at all. For those of you out there who still have grandfathers, I'm pretty much jealous. Both of mine had passed on even before I was born. So I had no opportunity to get to know them. I've only heard a lot of things being said about them by their children; my parents and their siblings.

Dad's father was a cute man. I've seen his only picture before. My dad looks a lot like him, only that arwah Yayi was a whole lot more Chinese-looking. Mum's father, in contrary, was an Indian man. She told me that he was a very, very firm person, being the Indian man that he was. I've also seen his picture, the only picture of him. In it, he looks sour and moody, his cheeks are hollow, not even the slightest hint of a smile. Atuk, why liddat???

Both my parents lost their fathers when they were about 10 years old or so. I can't imagine if I'd lost mine when I was that age. It'd be too much for one child to handle, wouldn't it be?

Anyways, the reason why I mentioned this is because a good friend had just lost his grandfather. The old man was already sick beforehand, so the friend and his family were already given a sign. Personally, I think it's a blessing in disguise, you know? Sending the old man to the hospital, having to take care of him, it just brings the family together. They may have gotten the chance to spend time together during his last moments.

Unlike my family and I, we were unaware because arwah Nenek was acting normal (albeit on a very ecstatic note, which was highly unusual for someone with a quiet and reserved nature) so we didn't know it was time for her to go. Plus it was during Syawal. God knows how bitter the upcoming months of Syawal are going to be.

So Tam, whatever it is, be strong. I know it sounds cliche but that's the only thing that keeps you going. Strength. When my Nenek passed away, I was not strong enough because I kept crying hours after, days after, and even for weeks. My cries showed that I wasn't accepting my fate, and that is not what a Muslim should do. Sebagai orang Islam, kita harus tabah menerima Qada' dan Qadar. That was one thing I couldn't manage well. My bad.

A senior then told me that deaths end lives but not relationships. I guess what it means is that, when you had ties with another, what matter is it if they're gone? You know you loved the person so dearly, you cherished their presence once, so cherish their non-existence now because that's the way Allah wants it to be. Loving Allah should be everyone's main priority. To love Allah means to also love His decisions made upon us. Perhaps their dying would bring more good to you and your family rather than their living.

That's how I find it to be. You know why? Back then, Mum and I were so accustomed to having little "I am annoyed with you" moments. But eversince Nenek left, not even once did my Mum scold me. Not anymore. And it's been more than 10 weeks. Can you see how much it took to make my Mum to stop doing what she'd been doing? Her own mother's death. I'm pretty sure she now appreciates the people she have around her more, cos death is no game for anyone to play with. When it arrives, there's no stopping it, there's no delaying either.

Allahu a'lam.

On a brighter note, yesterday I went (window-)shopping. Bought Bata shoes for school and a Domo tote bag as well. There were many more things which I wanted, and there were some which I thought I needed. But I refused to give in yet because.. ini semua nafsu. Lagi-lagi perempuan. Nafsu 99. Shopping is one of them. Haha. I shall wait a while longer before I buy anything more.

I shall now attempt the GP homework sent via email. It has to be handed in latest by 12 midnight tonight.

PS: I really can't wait to meet my Slengers this coming Tuesday. Babes, I miss you two sooo much. The nerd and the brown-eyed girl. Haha! Hope it'll be a fruitful day, cos we hardly met this year. How unnatural is that.

PPS: Wth happened to the S4G'08 plans? If y'all are gonna go quiet, then I guess there's NO OUTING.

PPPS: Please click on my Nuffnang ad. Pretty please with a cherry on top?

you'll be my only,
no need to worry ♥